July 10, 2014, Thursday, 11.33pm. Tonight, I am writing about the story
of my love, once my love. Not anymore. All begin at the very beginning...
September 26, 2013
These were the day I started a relationship with him. His name is Oh Min Chong. I used to call him Andy, which is his English name. He was my schoolmate since primary school and classmate for Year4-6 and Form2D. Seem like I knew him for very long time. Haha.. I used to call him “chang yin” which mean house fly in Chinese. Why? ‘Cuz he called me nickname too.
Ok, back to topic. September 25 was the actual date when he confessed to
me. All started with my argument about the stupid reason he gave for chatting
me by just due to boredom. Everyone hate that, especially me. The one that fall
in love on him since secondary school after his reaction of my second ex bf
made me cry. I knew he did that was a normal thing for him. But I could not
help myself from being touched by his reaction . So, that was it. I was in
relationship with him. I almost screamed through my hostel hallway. Jumping in
the toilet. How happy I was.
September 29, 2013
These were the week that I went back to KL from my hometown. I don’t
remember was my request or his offer to come TBS to accompany me or counted as
our first date. Anyway, he came! Although a bit late but it was fine to me. Best
part, he accompanied me from sunny day to dark. That day I was waiting for my
friend from Pahang. That day was a great day. I was glad to have him there.
October 4, 2013
These were the best real first dating with him ever!
We went to Sunway mall together. I went all the way to Subang Jaya alone. It took me almost 1 hour. He
brought me from there. Before we go, we ate at mamak shop there. Then took a
bus to Sunway. It was a great day. Especially was my first time been there.
While at there, we don’t really know what to do. We just walk and walk and
walk. I kept complaining tired, wanted to sit. So, we sat. The first time we
sat, a lady and a man approached us. Talked about jobs. Then, we decided to
walk. Again, I wanted to sit. So we sat at a stone sit near small waterfall
decoration. That time I wanted to take a picture with him but he refused. Fortunately, a group of students who were
doing some sort of research, wanted to help us take a picture and we gave some
tips to them. So, I was lucky! Haha!
This was the original picture of Andy and I. First
picture of us!
October 26, 2013
Guess what? First month passed! Happy first monthsary!
We did not celebrated anything but this was a meaningful day for me. This was
the day when I decided to study with him accompanied me at Starbuck, The Garden
Mall. That time was like a coincidence. I almost forgot it was 26th
that day. The study day had at last became my unforgettable day. The day that
our first time holding hands. Damn me, being so shy! I went red in face when he
holded my hand. Oh, my, God!
When going back at TBS, he walked me to the place for
taxi. Before I went for a taxi, we hugged. When I released him, he kissed me on
my forehead! I was like, automatically went up and kissed his cheek. OMG! I was
so surprised and never a guy kissed my forehead before. He surprised too. I was
like confused. So shy! I went back with a spark in my chest. I can’t never
forget this day!
January 14, 2014
This was the day I dated with him at Midvalley. We ate
cakes at Secret Recipe. He ordered green tea and mine was another one, I forgot
it name. We spend our time there. Then, we walked. I wanted a place where there
were less people. I did not mention to him.
But suddenly, he holded my hand and brought me
somewhere. I asked where we were going. He did not answer. There, we were at a
place with lesser people or maybe nobody most of the time. It was like he can
read my mind. Haha.. Again, I taken a few funny pictures with him as he always
refuse to take picture with me.
Our sweet moment together…
January 29, 2014
If I am not mistaken, this was the date I went back
with him together at night to our hometown for CNY holidays. Time fly. I still
remember how excited I was that time. I supposed can go back earlier one day
but I decided to wait for him. So I waited till almost so late like 7pm+. I
don’t care, had him was enough. I still remembered that day was a rainy night.
February 2, 2014
It was the third day of CNY. This was the best CNY I
ever enjoyed! All because of him. I had been able to enjoy. The whole day me
and my friends went around visiting house to house. What a great day! I am
sorry I can’t share those pictures here. All along that day, he took care of
me. It was my first time went to his house. I never took my chance to go into
his room. Haha…
February 8, 2014
This was the ninth day of CNY. It was my first time
sleepover at his place at his condominium. Before I went there, last night his
place was black out. And he was on his own due to all his housemates were still
not back from CNY. So, I decided to go to his place. Before going, we spend our
time at our usual dating place, Midvalley. That was my first time playing gun
game at there, with him. It was a great day. While sleeping over his place, we
watched Robocop before went to his condo. It almost 7pm. So, after we took our
bathe. We went to Giant and bought ingredients for our dinner. We cooked
together. How long I had dreamt that and finally came true! After dinner, we
watched The Conjuring. That moment was damn funny! I enjoyed. Then, later we
slept together. Just sleep. Nothing ya. Just playing with pillows. We both
slept through the night till morning. I woke up and seeing his sleepy face was
cute. I never had an experience like that before..
Dinner that we cooked.
View from his condo’s windows.
February 14, 2014
Of course everyone knew what date is this. It was
Valentine’s Day! This was my first Valentine’s Day with my lover. Too bad I had
class till 4pm. It almost ruined my day. At 4.30pm+, we met up at Hang Tuah
monorel station. So, there we went to Pavillion as planned yesterday. But too
bored. Then, he brought me to KLCC. This was my first time being to KLCC at
night with him. The view was fascinating. Beautiful.. So many lovers were
there. So romantic. We took a picture. Sorry, it was a little bit too dark. But
sweet memory in it. I love him so much!
Suddenly, his roommate called him to invite me to
sleep over at his place. His roommate was with his gf too. I had no choice.
Since it was already late. So, I went back with him. We took monorel together
to KL Sentral. While waited for bus. We chatted about his future. It was
raining while waiting for bus. He covered me with his external shirt. I felt so
protected by him..
At his place, I don’t have shirt to wear. So, I borrowed
his shirt. He let me borrowed his favorite shirt, PLKN shirt and his pants.
Haha.. I even used his shampoo and body soap. I smell completely like him. It
was a great day. Although I can’t sleep well that night.
March 26, 2014
Half year relationship was always the most special day
for me. Happy Half Year anniversary! It happened to be a bad day. This was when
something was about to happen. Something bad..
March 29, 2014
This was the second last of our date. It was a
coincidence that day. I met my best friend while waiting for him. I came to
Midvalley that day. I was excited to found out there were an cosplay event as I
never seen cosplay in real life before. I went to take picture with my favorite
anime cosplay, helped by him.
April 26, 2014
This was the last day we dated. It was seventh
monthsary. It was nothing special. Only he acted weirdly. He was very stressful
for his coming final exam. That day was a very sad day. We walked together like
strangers. I still managed to take a few pictures.
Yea, he looked unhappy to me. He just got tired of me
keep taking his picture. He hate taking picture, yes, he did.
After those moment, things were getting worse and
worse. He started being so cold to me. Every time he came back, he never find
me. Love was gone. I cried sometimes. Complained to him.
Until one night, I decided to find a topic to chat
with him. I asked him the comparison of single life and in relationship life.
All the answers were awful. I cried so hard that I hurt my eyes. We nearly
broke up until we talked out in phone. But soon after, June 26, 2014, we broke
up. Everything stop here.
He had his reasons. I still confused about that.
However, I still hope he will come back for me. I know
it is impossible. But for real, I really scared to fall in love again. I wonder
if I will ever trust any guys again. Love is too scary for me. I am not strong
enough to handle. I put a hope on him while waiting someone to appear. I loved
him and still love him. So many wonderful things happened between me and him.
How could I let go?? It’s hurt!
I never know our love will end so fast...
“I hope you will come back for me”
“I love you”
